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07 November Here againI know that I have not written anything here for a long time. Probably much longer than I have ever thought. It's November again. Last year this time I was busy searching for jobs and constantly thinking about how wonderful it would be when I start working. Now after 1 year, I have been working for 5 months. I must say that there are things I expected and then there are those I did not foresee. Like someone said to me today, sometimes life is way too dynamic and spontaneous to plan ahead. We just need to know where we want to get to eventually but we cannot really know which path we will take. Also, things change, and we change too. In the past 2 weeks, I spent most of my times thinking about my career which is something I am willing to put 100% of my effort into right now. I have been talking to a lot of friends about my concerns and issues, but have not taken much actions yet. I realized that as many problems as there could be, there is more possibilities laying ahead of me. There is nothing for me to lose by trying to make changes. After all, I would rather be able to tell myself and others that I have tried my best than giving up. As people have told me, learning is from doing things and experiencing the mistakes. I know that I have all the courage and skills to take the initiatives on many things. The transition from school to work has been hard, much harder than I could imagine. Being a perfectionist, when my standards on myself were not met, I became unhappy and depressed. In these months, I went through many emotional up and downs. There were times when I wish I could be somewhere else, times when I doubted myself, and times I got distracted by other things. It's worthy all of it because I have learned very valuable lessons: 1. focus on the positive things and never let the negative ones affect your life; 2. believe in yourself and what you deserve so you know when to let go and when to move on; 3. never say "I cannot" because it is all about how hard you have tried. I am glad that I could have gone through my thinking in this short amount of time. It certainly feels good to refocus on the important things and find the right direction again. Getting lost was painful, but it is rewarding at the end. During lunch, someone I just met several weeks ago told me something surprising. He said "you are way too emotional, romantic and passionate to just settle for average in any aspect of your life." When I heard it, it hit me so hard. Maybe sometimes we all need to have people to remind ourselves that we can go the extra miles as long as we are willing to take the risks and effort. Life is an adventure and you just need to enjoy it with an open heart and sincere mind. |
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